Oh my god my body is not cut out for running. But I will make it, dammit. Though I did good today considering I hadnt gone in two weeks...and only three times before that. Tomorrow I need to push myself a little bit harder, heart I am doing this for you. Oddly, I enjoy it. I enjoy pushing myself and sweating and being active. It wakes me up and I think better, clearer and deeper. This is a practice I must keep all my life. That and yoga.

Tomorrow I need to call the doctors office and make an appointment to get shot up. I have to get shots (or I think I do..) before school so that I can do my hospital visits etc. The joys of being a nursing student. But its all good cos I like shots. Though I think I really only have to have a TB test done and proof of the others, cos I think Im all up to date. And if thats the case I just need a nurse to sign me off and photo copy my records. And I could probably have Lynn do my TB test since Im due for that in a few weeks again. Id rather have her do it then go to the doctors and pay for it. Im cheap. I think I have all my financial aid stuff figured out. We increased my plus loan by another 2,000 a semester. So I should have enough in loans and what not. Yay for loans. Debt scares me. A lot.

Today I bought a picture frame that is divided into four sections, I came home and put two pictures of Elsie in it and then in the other two squares her paw print and a little saying they gave me at the vet when we put her to sleep. On the corner I hung her collar. I like it. Its hanging right above my desk so that I can look up and gaze at my baby. I miss her bad and it really hurts. I know she is better off now but Im not. Im so much worse.

I think Im going to get me a beta for college. So that I have a pet all of my own. I miss not having a pet. Because Ugg is Sarahs and Rylees is everyones. I want a fish (only Pet you can have at school) because its enough for me and I wont be attatched to it, but it will keep me from feeling so lonely. I need to take care of something, to have responsibilty. I think it will be many years before I get another cat, sometime after I move out from home and have a place of my own.

Much of my day was spent scrapbooking. I am almost finished. Im surprised its a fairly small scrapbook, I was expecting it to be much bigger. It will be finished tomorrow night. I just have grad night and graduation left to do. And then I can start on the rest of my life. I just wish scrapbooking didnt cost so much, I cant believe how expensive the paper and everything is. Its ludacris. I wonder if I can fit the rest of my life in one scrapbook. I think I should be able to. And then I can just do from here on out.

And now I think Im heading off to bed so that I can wake up to go running.